Hi Papa! I wanted to write to document something that I feel that You’ve been putting on my heart for about a week or so. I wanted to document it so that, if I or someone else, looks back at my life, I have documented the growth You’ve caused in me. Specifically, I feel like this prompting, that I plan to document, is from You…not from my own motivation, but rather a divine inspiration, probably much like the writers of scripture, because it is not something that I had been thinking about, but rather something that You brought to my attention.
Sarcasm has always been a way of life for me. It was a survival strategy and comic relief all at the same time. I grew up in a sarcastic family, and in some ways it can serve as a defense mechanism…making people’s opinions and comments not matter as much. I have always been afraid of talking, because talking gets judged…and that doesn’t feel safe, so in that way it is a defense. Sarcasm has also been a form of laughing at things around me or making light of them. Frequently, people laugh with me about “it” so that has “spurred me on”.
The prompting that I’ve felt from You though is this…that every time I open my mouth or even make an expression, to be sure that it is kind and gentle. I feel like I have a tendency to be hateful…maybe not even in my actions as much, but in my thought life because I internalize everything. No one can critique my thoughts (besides You) and unless they spill out of my mouth, no one can hear them. But often my thoughts come across on my facial expressions…and that is not always good.
I know that our thought life of utmost importance, because that is from the deepest part of us…the very truth of who we are.
I desire more than breath to glorify You with everything about me. I want, when I speak, for people to hear You and when I act/do anything, I want people to see You.
Help me with this Papa. I’ve built some bad habits. Help my life to glorify you.
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